negativity..

i am a pessimist.. i bet not everyone in my (a perfect) circle knows that 'bout me.. no, i don't need a Keyence Ionizer (yet) to balace me out altogether.. it's just that i have this penchant for expecting for the worst in any event that i may anticipate to happen.. it's like everyone sees the blinding bright light ahead, and yet i say 'it's kinda dark still, moron..' and it saks 'cause sometimes it takes the best out of me, keeping me from doing what i must do, and in effect turning me into a virtual sitting duck.. an alone and easy target..

i had my shares of failures and frustrations way back my younger years, but i don't remember a single instance where i sulked.. i guess i was emotionless back then.. the one who puts everything in stride and go on with life as fast as a fingersnap.. and i think it's haunting me now.. you know, all those past vexations that i should have pondered over, are now having they're revenge and turning me into a stupid cynic.. oh well.. makanood na lang ng charmed nga..

hmm.. siguro.. i just don't want to be all too assuming.. a ewan.. saan na ba yung remote..?!